Post by Therrien Xavier on Dec 10, 2013 10:17:30 GMT
Holocron Entry #01
Date 12/10/2013
I began my Je'daii Path many years ago, not really knowing it. I have been through many many long and tedious journey's after my father passed away back in 2004; when I was only 17 I felt the powers of Bogan begin to surge through me. My attachment to my father did have an effect on my and it led me down a very dark path. Soon it was drinking on a daily basis, of course then I moved on to smoking pot, and so forth I moved on to using heavier drugs. I found myself tearing apart my spiritual side and destroying relationships with good friends. 3 months after my dad passing I lost the love of my life, and so it was attachment again bringing me to a dark place for many years I went on like this doing anything just to get messed up and not to face life how I should have. That is until about 4 years ago when out of nowhere I woke up and had a realization that my life was heading nowhere, that I needed to change myself and get to a higher spiritual awareness. Now I am on the path that, the Ashla has brought me too.
Holocron Entry #2
12/10/2013
Here I am at 4:21 am, I find that at this time I'm unable to sleep I have been trying to analyze a dream that I had the night before, about being in the desert. In my dream I seen that I was surrounded by many people more like shadow people who I couldn't really make out, it was at sunset and their was a mountain range in the distance. Out of nowhere a huge barrage of burning asteroids began flying over head, but they did not strike Earth. The were huge, and burning bright. After analyzing my dream I came to these conclusions The asteroids symbolize a higher plane of consciousness and enlightenment hence the burning fire, they did not hit the ground they just flew over head which tells me that it is a sign of divine power guiding me along my path, the shadow people represent a darker side of myself that remains unseen, or repressed. Also the shadow people began crowding around me as I walked along. Suggesting to me that I need more space and solitude in my life to carry on with my studies, they idea of being in a desert also suggest to me that I'm unconsciously feeling loneliness and or desertion which could be that I am thinking about my father who passed in 2004. All in all I feel that I need to work on myself and my own personal goals, to get where I want in life. I need to maybe take some time off work as in my dream the shadow people could also represent people who do not take me at all seriously, and totally disregard anything that I am saying. In short I think it would be wise of myself to take some time and go and be alone while I sort things out.
Holocron Entry # 3
12/12/2013
My personal goals for the end of the year and the beginning of next year.
Here it is December of 2013, I have yet to pay off my court fines, but intend to do so this up coming payday. Come January of 2014, I want to pay off Academy bank and open a new bank account so I can start saving my money up to buy a new car. I also want to begin a new diet and start eating better, also I want to quit smoking as it is not good for me and well frankly is a disgusting habit. I would also like to begin exercising regularly at least four times a week as I am 27 and in the worst shape of my life. The main things that I really need to concentrate on though are my spending habits and my job, although I am thankful for the job I have now, it is getting me nowhere fast or will it in the future, so for 2014 I plan on concentrating on finding a better career, I would like start college sometime, depending on how well I can get my spending under control. For now I will do my best at work, try my hardest and try not to complain about the work I do. I realize that there are others out there who are less fortunate, than I and for me to complain about the work I do, and get as angry as I do at work for my is just childish, I will concentrate on the moment here and now and look forward to the progress that I begin to make within the next coming year. Along with exercising and a new diet I would like to drop my weight from 210 down to about 180 as I think that would be beneficial to myself. Getting healthy is the second part of my must do list and I look forward to shedding the pounds.
Holocron Entry # 4
12/14/2013
Samurai Lesson.
When you have attained the way of strategy there will be nothing that you cannot understand. You will see the way in everything.
-The Book of Five Rings. The Book of Five Rings (五輪書, Go Rin No Sho) is a text on kenjutsu and the martial arts in general, written by the swordsman Miyamoto Musashi circa 1645.
These are words that we should let resonate through us, let these words sink in for they are the keys to your own potential. Though you may not understand every aspect in life as long as you have a long term plan and a means of carrying out those plans you become limitless. Now when we go through life with fears and attachments to things that we are afraid to change we begin to build barriers; walls that we ourselves have to climb to get over and begin to disassemble those walls brick by brick, when we do put these walls up, it seems to not only slow us down physically it slows us down mentally both in the physical and spiritual realms and we begin to limit ourselves on our abilities. Looking to the Samurai, we can learn a lot about them that can ultimately, change the way we perceive ourselves. With adjustments to our everyday lives we can begin to better ourselves; through training both spiritually and physically.
Holocron Entry # 5 Fear death no more.
12/18/2013
Secrets of the Samurai Sword
Like the Samurai, the Je'daii Use the sword as an extension of their physical self, discipline, honor, whole body movements are needed to control this extension of the warrior. I am beginning a new path in my life that is taking me down the Samurai path, I have always been afraid of death but no longer.
“Bushido is realized in the presence of death. This means choosing death whenever there is a choice between life and death. There is no other reasoning.”
― Yamamoto Tsunetomo, Hagakure: The Book of the Samurai
meaning be ready to face death when faced with it, look it straight in the eye and do not be afraid of it. From this point on I vow to stand ready to die for my cause, and my cause is to bring peace where peace needs brought, I am a beacon of light where there is dark, I am a warrior ready to defend peace by any means necessary. I am driven by the need to do right by my brothers and sisters of the universe, but if a foe shall come along and disrupt our peace, I will slay that foe down with a vengeful ruthlessness until I have brought peace again.
Holocron Entry # 6
12/18/2013
Whats not to understand about world peace.
“Whenanother person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeplywithin himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not needpunishment; he needs help. That's the message he is sending.”
―Thích Nhất Hạnh
thoughI believe in the right to bear arms, I often think to myself, "Whatif man had never created weapons in the first place?" wherewould we be today? I would like to think we would all be united, thatwe would have each others backs, that we would give the utmost tohelp each other. What if we never created money and lived by thebarter system, exchanging goods for services to one another. What isso hard about the concept of world peace. Why is it always war thisand kill that. I am here to be an advocate, I believe that we canhave a world of unity, caring and compassion. I believe in peace thatmankind can and will eventually understand this idea. I use to runaround and call people ignorant because of their actions or ideas butI have come to realize that there is no ignorance in the world, onlymisunderstanding, I give myself to that understanding and I go fortheveryday to spread that understanding.